The library of everything that describes, defines, and contains the poetics of silver for me.
 

Poetics - the set of techniques characterizing artistic creation. A field of internal critique, allowing each artistic medium to observe its own virtues.
 

My library is mine.                      It is small and concentrated.               It's a section of the larger library.

         It is the sum of my techniques with pure silver. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . maybe not even.
 

It is the sum of the things that emerged, that clarified in the last research journey in the material
 

In my library there is no orderly method. These are attempts to reflect my thoughts, which most of the time are a big mess, of fragmented ideas, of frail connections, of loose ends that can be undone, re-arranged, and re-sewn at any time. And yet, these are the sources, the building blocks from which I draw and on which I rely.
 

In the last nine research sessions, it was very difficult for me to deepen my exploration of my connection to the material - to pure silver. I thought it was because I have been digging into this for many years. And maybe I have nothing more to discover. I felt frustrated, I thought maybe I should go the opposite way, work with the material as "accepted." I couldn't connect and be creative or even look at the silver straight in the eyes. Perhaps here is the place to apologize for most of the time "faking it," doing what was easy for me. I invested the hours but not the heart.

In the last two weeks, I understood what silver is for me, and where the difficulty and disconnection stem from. First and foremost, pure silver is my umbilical cord to the world. In the world I grew up in, the guiding principles were guilt, shame, and loving = hurting. To create freely - to fall in love, it is dangerous, it might harm the world I created with silver - livelihood, being a person in the world. Pure silver allows me to breathe | heal | process guilt and shame | connect and continue - root? | passion | desire | integrity | creation.